Surgery

About six years go, I broke my right fibula while skiing. A plate and a few screws were drilled into my fibula to bolt it together. While they served me well at first, they began to bother my leg, affected my walking and running gait, and from last year started giving me pain. Thus, last Wednesday I had these screws and plate removed.

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I want to share a few aspects of my hospital stay. Continue reading

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Happy New Year

Another year has just passed. At this time, I, as I’m sure many of you do, look back at what I did in the past 12 months and plan for the coming 12 months.

The year 2018
I consider the Year of the Dog as a pivotal year in my life. Unlike the two years prior to it, for various reasons, I was excited for 2018 to start. Although I was not eager to become a Golden Girl last year, I seized the opportunity to challenge myself and discard the dreariness of 2016 and 2017. The year 2018 saw me try my hand at being a punk rock band lead singer and a recording “artist” (although I recorded only one song for my firm’s year-end party), while I continued my foray into classical singing. I impulsively got up on a chair at a sports bar and sang in front of a crowd to cheer my alma mater’s basketball team. Whereas the fear of failure previously froze me into inaction, last year it pushed me to prepare, practice and learn, and energized me to become bold and audacious. If I’m going to fail, I might as well fail gloriously. But I did manage not to make a fool of myself.

Last year saw me regain control over my health, starting with seeing a new endocrinologist, returning to healthy eating and exercising, and trying a new dietary regimen (and it’s a regimen that my husband was eager to participate in). I also cooked more, this time relying on the thoroughly delicious keto recipes of Carolyn Ketchum (alldayIdreamaboutfood). I enjoyed spending time again in the kitchen. With healthy eating and more exercise, I happily bid farewell to a few kilos, which will not be missed. I have regained a better handle on my diabetes and pushed back on the havoc that the previous two years of half-hearted focus on my health brought to my HbA1c, blood glucose, waistline and health. Although I am not back to the level of blood glucose control I had prior to 2016, I was clearly on my way there during the latter half of 2018.

The few opportunities I had to travel reconnected me with old friends and family, and allowed me to rediscover my country’s history, food, movies, literature and culture. I also feel that 2018 allowed me to continue to grow from a professional point of view and to confirm to myself how much I love what I do.

These are simply some of the important things that 2018 brought me. I cannot complain. I was blessed; I am blessed.

The year 2019
Because of my rewarding experiences in 2018, I am especially motivated to do better this year. There are still things to learn and improve on. There are so many things I want to do this year and beyond, both personally and professionally. I have never been this excited since the day I got married.

This year my main goal is to primarily continue what I started last year. That may sound unexciting and uninspired but it is easy to start things while keeping the course requires a lot more work. Health-wise, in real terms, that means:

  • Keeping my A1c at less than 6%
  • Losing my abdominal fat
  • Building more muscles
  • Being more physically active
  • Continuing the new dietary regime my husband and I started last year (more on that in the next article)

I want to add doing a half-marathon but my legs are not cooperating. The plate attached to one leg, which is my memento from a skiing accident, is causing pain in my leg and changing my gait. So, I’ll deal with that issue first before looking at doing races again.

I also have other resolutions regarding other aspects of my life. One of these other resolutions includes trying really hard to keep this blog updated.

In essence, the foregoing resolutions are not really new. As I said, they sound boring, old and familiar; and, yes, they are. But a New Year’s resolution does not have to be something drastic or completely new. It can be as simple as continuing what one has started.

I am looking forward to a very rewarding, fruitful and exciting 2019. Happy New Year everyone!

 

Still Here

As everyone knows, life does not always follow your plan. Life, well, has a life of its own sometimes. Things get out of control. We do not always get what we want. No matter how disciplined, careful, or aware we are, we can and do fall off the wagon, and not just once or twice but many times. That in short was what happened to me, as I’m sure you have already guessed.

Many things have happened in the past two years which have loosened my resolve to manage T2D. I became more lax about my diet. Although I was still generally careful about what I ate and drank, I admittedly ate one or two or three rice, udon and ramen bowls too many. I gave myself all the excuses I can think of. Of course I gained some weight and of course my blood sugar went up as evidenced by my rising A1c. Continue reading

My silly sugar tests

Will scrubbing my lips with a sugar lip scrub affect my blood sugar?

That question popped into my head one morning as I was gently scrubbing my lips. I knew I didn’t have to do a blood check to know the answer but I thought it would an entertaining way to return to regular self-monitoring blood glucose checks.

I have to admit that I’d been complacent with my testing for a while now. I had resolved to get back to SMBG checks to restart my diabetes management but after months of slacking, resuming SMBG tests was not as easy as I thought. I kept forgetting to check at the two-hour mark. Thus, adding an element of silliness and fun may not be a bad idea. So, one morning, a frivolous sugar scrubbing experiment was born. Continue reading

Summer news

Summer fireworks

2016 Fireworks, Ome-shi, Tokyo

The cicadas have started serenading Japan again, signaling the official arrival of summer in the country. Finally, summer has arrived! Actually, summer arrived a month ago. But let me pretend that it has just arrived. I love summer. Nothing best describes summer than “fun”. Of course, dreadful things also happen in summer but somehow the summer season lightens up any misery, at least for me. My best memories were all made in summer. Nothing, not even Bell’s palsy, can ruin my summer 2016. Continue reading

Blink

For the first couple of days after I developed Bell’s palsy, the song Big Girls Don’t Cry played in my head each time I stepped into the shower or washed my face. It had nothing to do with Jersey Boys but with a decades-old TV commercial for no-sting baby shampoo. Bell’s palsy, however, teaches you that it’s not only shampoo or soap which can sting your eyes. Ordinary water can be painful as well, all because your eyes cannot blink.

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Bell’s palsy faces: looking normal, grimace parading as a smile, and the kissing mood (Ooops, they have nothing to do with the post)

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Conversations

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The past two weeks of living with Bell’s palsy had not been as difficult as I had initially imagined. The words of encouragement and well wishes which I have received and continue to receive from family, friends and colleagues have been most helpful in getting me through the first few anxious days following the onset of the palsy and in overcoming continuing but decreasing bouts of insecurity. I would like to share with you a few of the conversations (or lack thereof) I have had since I first noticed that I cannot completely close my left eye.

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Saturday, June 11, morning
Me:                  I’m a freak! I’m a freak!
My husband: No, you’re not. You are beautiful. Continue reading

Can’t move my face

June 9, 2016, Thursday, started out like any other day. As I put on makeup that morning I mapped out my day. Which work assignment do I begin with? Which colleague will most likely pester me with rush work today? Will I do well in my practice Japanese listening test this afternoon? Will it be a good day? Where shall my husband and I go for dinner? As usual, I dropped by Starbucks to get my soy cappuccino to wake me up properly. When I got to the office, I almost immediately began typing away on my computer.

That normal day began to take a different shape around lunchtime. It started with a small discomfort in my left eye, as if there was a grain of sand lodged in it. I attributed it to my contact lens drying up and reached for an eye drop. Continue reading

Twilight

 

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Last month, my family and I buried our father. His journey towards the end of his life reinforced lessons I learned from my mother’s final struggle with cancer and death nearly 19 years ago.

We are born. We live. We die.

That is a reality that we all share. But a lot of people I know talk about living and not so much about dying. Unless they talk about death in a religious or philosophical context, death is taboo, or at least is an uncomfortable topic. The mention of death is dismissed as morbid, rather than the liberating exercise that it could be. Many discuss quality of life – whether and how often they should exercise, what they should and should not eat, how they should avoid stress, and what job will not strangle their soul – yet stay away from talk of death. But no talk about life is complete without considering how one approaches the end.

Of course we don’t know when and how we will actually leave this world. But we can think about certain eventualities and how we and more importantly our family will deal with them. Do I have life insurance and is it sufficient? Do I have a will? In addition, we should also seriously ponder upon three other important questions.

The first is “What is our will?” If an accident results in us going into a vegetative state, what should our loved ones do? Do they keep us going even if we will forever be plugged into machines? Do they authorize surgeries just to keep our bodies going for one or two weeks longer? Do they donate our organs? Do they let us continue to exist even after we are reduced to less than the shell of the person we were?

The second is “Who decides for us if and when we become unable to do so?” This is especially important if you are in a relationship but are not married. You do not want your long-time partner shut out by family members for any reason. Please have the necessary legal documents to make sure your chosen representative, and no one else, is authorized to represent you.

The third is “How do we deal with serious illness?” Should we be faced with a serious medical condition, such as a terminal illness, what do we do? Do we undergo chemo, a series of surgeries, or experimental drugs or therapy? Do we waste valuable time and resources depriving ourselves of proper food and nutrients to follow a grueling detox program because some pseudo-science alternative medical entity tells us so, as my father had done out of desperation? Instead of being in a hospital, do we prefer to spend our last days in a beautiful, peaceful environment?

These are some of the things we should not be afraid to ask while we have the mental, physical and emotional objectivity and capacity. Once we are seriously sick, we become less objective and may clutch at straws in the false hope of prolonging our existence. If, due to bad circumstances, we end up in a coma, we certainly will not be in any position to make any decision.

By the way, I’m not saying we should not fight for our health and our life. We must fight. But at some point the nature of that fight changes, and we should be ready to accept and prepare ourselves and our loved ones for the inevitable. Instead of dying a shrunken, tired individual whose last weeks are spent in fear, pain, and suffering, we can choose to spend those weeks leaving behind better memories, ticking off the last things on our bucket list, or simply enjoying the sunset.

More importantly, by being prepared, we hope that we can spare our loved ones the difficulty of second-guessing us and the guilt that that may produce. No one wants to be seen as callous or unfeeling even if the most difficult decision to make is the right one. No one wants to do the right thing only to be riddled with guilt and self-doubt. Indecision, family wrangling (which thankfully my family did not face), fear, guilt, even shame – these are not the legacies with which you wish to burden the ones you love.

Bureaucrats!

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Every time something works, someone will come along to mess it up.

This morning, I visited my endo for my quarterly checkup. Everything is fine, except for one tiny change in our arrangement which my endo announced at the end of the consultation. Apparently, the National Health Insurance (probably thanks to a bored bureaucrat or more likely a group of bored bureaucrats) has decided that effective April 1 doctors cannot issue a script for more than 60 days’ supply of medicine. Previously, my endo regularly issued 90 days’ worth of metformin (plus 10 days’ allowance in case I need to reschedule my checkup due to any unforeseen event), which covered my needs until my next quarterly A1C bloodwork and checkup. It worked perfectly. With the recent change, however, my script will no longer match my quarterly A1c check and I will be required to pay extra visits to my endo just to pick up meds.

Why? Why? Why? I’m sure that in the larger scheme of things there is a reason for the new restriction. But, I’m also sure that whoever thought of this new scheme did not consider the fact that it is a big inconvenience to a lot of patients.

My doctor and I discussed our options.

Option One, in two months, I’ll pick up one month’s supply of medicine and go back one month later for my A1C checkup and to pick up my next two months’ supply. Repeat.

Option Two, in two months, I’ll pick up two months’ supply of meds and go back two months later for my A1C test and the next two months’ supply. Repeat.

Either option demands that I visit my endo the same number of times. But with Option One, I can maintain my quarterly A1C tests, whereas with Option Two I will have only three A1C tests a year, with a total of three months that are not covered by any A1C check. I suppose it’s Option One for me.

Some of you may be thinking, “What’s the problem? It’s just four extra visits to the doctor’s a year to pick up medicine.” Of course, if I had all the time in the world, the extra journeys to the doctor’s is not an issue. But, like most people, I don’t have that luxury, and I’m willing to bet, neither do those bureaucrats should it be their turn to be the patient.